moving on

so it has been a while since i wrote here. not much has happened, except that i have moved on.

yes, no more of the same sorrow that’s been plaguing me for so long.

a new beginning. found someone. too early to tell though.

[title goes here]

Para. 1: [a brief introduction. share with your readers what happened over the weekend, how it made you feel. tell your readers how you feel now, and how that feeling is not similar to the former. yeah, yeah..she makes you happy, she lets you down. rinse, and repeat.]

Para. 2: [rant about your love life. rant about the same girl as per previous similar posts. tell your readers about this latest screw over. but (spoiler alert!) it's the same old story. express your feelings in a calm manner. come on, who are we kidding? cuss all you want, brah!]

Para. 3: [try to defend your stubbornness, not giving up on this girl. liken the girl to a chipsmore cookie, to give the readers a hint of what the girl is like in your life. explain to your readers, you tried to forget this girl (like cutting off all forms of communication), but she would always pop up into your life (just when you're getting comfortable). remind the readers how she made you feel when she's around. how she made you think she's opening her heart for you. she keeps deceiving you!]

Para. 4: [tell your readers this cycle is going to repeat itself many times. how you don't know how or when it's going to end. oh it has to end!]

I LOL-ed

Ha, I knew it!

how long has it been?

Aug 6, 2010 chat log

“sunyi sepi skng” = [insert your own interpretation]

see, i told you this would happen.

Dear You

Dear You,

I’ve known you for a few years. I remember the first time I saw you, and I said to myself, “go say hi to her”. And I did, I said Hi to you at the parking lot. I gave you my card, hoping that you’d call me. You didn’t. I didn’t care, no harm in trying.

One day we bumped into each other. You saw me and smiled. I smiled back. So it started. You were a student, your route were similar to mine, so sometimes we bumped into each other, sat together and just talked. I had a crush on you. You knew, but you were not available. I didn’t care, just as long as we’re friends.

It wasn’t easy, but I didn’t mind. I didn’t want to push you. Just go with the flow. I was single, you befriending was good enough. I wanted more than that, but it wasn’t meant to be.

Then you were gone. I was disappointed, but I understood. I moved on. Slowly but surely, I managed to get you out of my mind. I was doing fine without you. I didn’t event think about you.

Earlier this year, I received a missed call. I called back, it was you. “What’s up?”, you asked me. “Nothing,” I replied and said “Why did you call me? Anything I can do for you?”. “Oh nothing, just wondering why a certain someone kept quiet for a long time”. That “certain someone” was me. So it started again. This time, you were single. Fine by me.

For a few months, I was happy. I get text messages from you almost everyday, we talked on the phone a few times a week, we went out for dinners and movies. I was happy. Maybe this is it. This went on for a few months.

Sometimes, when we were alone in the car, stuck in traffic jams, we’ talk about anything. About you, about me, about anything. I would sneak something about “us” here and there, but all I get from you is “can we change the subject?”.

I should have known. Between you and me, there is no “us”. That missed call to me because you were bored. Because you just broke up. You needed me to fill that void, because you were lonely. You only needed me temporarily to keep yourself occupied, until you found a new someone.

The biggest hint would have to be when you promised to watch a movie together. I even bought the tickets in advance because you promised. Surprise, surprise, you cancelled at the last minute, less than two hours before the show. Way to  bring a guy down. I still keep the unused tickets on my wall, as a reminder. Sure, you apologized, that’s cool. I don’t think that apology was sincere though. Why do I think that? Because you only said “sowwy” a few days later, after I texted you to say “Hi”. You just didn’t care. By the way, I feel bad for you. Speech impediment? Can’t pronounce the word “R”? Haha, I’m just being mean.

I guess you found a new someone. Text messages have been slow, not as frequent as it used to be this few months back. You’re not as quick to reply to my text messages. Not picking up your phone, not returning my calls. Just like the “good” old days, huh? Just disappear without a word.

You used me, do not deny this. Bored? Call me to take you out for a movie. Lonely? Never fear, I am just a phone call away. The BEST would have to be when you asked me to pick you up because you had no one else to drive you home. I am nothing but a guy you use when you’re bored and lonely, and also your CHAFFEUR. Touché, girl, touché. You played your game well, using some who likes you for you own advantage. Well, that word should be in the past tense now. I liked you then. Now? Not very much.

Hey, I have something for you. After what you did to me,

you deserve this

You fooled me once, you fooled me twice. Thrice? Ain’t gonna happen.

Aah, feels good to let this out. Good therapy. Bitter? Nah, just pissed. What self respecting man wouldn’t be?

I would still survive. I’d stay away from you for now. Until you’re bored and lonely and want to play again. But I won’t be fooled again. Next round, you be the fool.

Reminder

nice seats. pity nobody's ass was sitting on them.

shit happens.

chilling, rolling, and bonding

yesterday was sunday.

went to Sungai Chilling (Kuala Kubu Bharu) with my housemates for some chilling, and bonding session. rolling? rolling…hm…rolling happily in the water, doing summersaults and everything you do at waterfalls.

the hike to the waterfall was tiring, but totally worth it. first, because the waterfall is B-E-A-uuutiful, and second, we saw hundreds of kelah eating bread crumbs fed by the visitors, us included.

i only managed to snap a few pictures because i only had my camera phone, and the battery was dying.

tranquility

serenity

you will (most probably) die if you jump

the water is very cold. VERY.

Man Utd 1 - 2 Chelsea. dissappointing, but i'm cool with that.

most eligible bach...eh never mind

now my body is aching. adoi. ye lah, dah lama tak bersukan, tiba – tiba pergi redah hutan hiking. urat sakit, otot pun sakit, lazat bukan?

p/s: this is a good way to forget about your team’s loss in the EPL the night before. GGMU!